Chapter 12

I know I promised to post this chapter yesterday and I didn't so I'm SO sorry but here's the chapter you guys have been waiting for, enjoy <3 !

Me: "At least asrig 7abay-IB mu alif w adour 3la banat w shabab, and i'm straight el7mdila!"
Juju: "Eklay 5arach! Yal! .."
And just before she could even continue, the room's door pushed open and I turned around to find Fahad standing there with his face SO red mbayn 3alaih ena m3a9ib, he heard everything...

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I’ve never seen someone’s face turn kl hal alwan in my life before, its like the happy positive Fahad I had known for a week now has just switched to a total different person. He looked up to face us 3 and I didn’t dare look back at him so I looked at the ground and Juju broke off the silence…

“Fa-fahad I can explain…”

“Ana mu m9adig ely sm3tah, wallah 67to mn 3ainy ALL THREE OF YOU!” and he turned around to walk out of the room.

“FAHAD! WAIT ARJOUK!” Juju almost screamed on the top of her lungs with tears spilling down her face… 9j ena I hated her bs I felt so bad, I knew how it is to disappoint someone you care about so much and he was the closest thing she had as a family. I then tried calming her down as Sara broke into tears with her, great…

“Juju? Sara?”

They both looked at me b-na6’rat e7ti8ar with tears filling their eyes,

Sara: “SHTABEEN? HAVEN’T YOU CAUSED ENOUGH? ERTA7TAY?”

“BS SARA! How could I have known he’s behind the door, I…”

And before I could even finish off my sentence, Juju spoke,

“Ma kamalty esbou3! ESBOU3 BS YA NOOR BNT FLANY! W YOU CAUSED THIS MUCH PROBLEMS? MABEECH, ENTAY MUB MY COUSIN AND YOU DON’T BELONG HERE, I NEVER WANNA SEE YOU AGAIN LEAVE ME THE F*CK ALONE!”

Then Sara topped it off with more harsh words but in a much calmer tone causing my head and heart to ache a bit more,

“I think this isn’t your place anymore, and if I were you w knt m7tara bayn elkuwait w g6r, choose Kuwait, rj3y to your father w to your friends l2na trust me if you stay here, you WILL be lonely w you won’t be able to live with us, ely baina el7yn has officially been ruined forever, pack your things w tell your mum you’re okay with going back to g6r tomorrow.”

I didn’t know what to say, I knew that I was in the end going to end up choosing Kuwait over here but the way she broke it out to me made me realize that the day really is tomorrow, and I REALLY don’t belong here… Oh my god, I ruined everything… Shloun bbayn wajhy to these people ever again? I left the room quietly and silently w headed downstairs, and since it was around 1:30, I knew the parents wouldn’t be back for half an hour, great.

I ran outside and went to sit on the swingy chair then pulled my knees up and stuck my face on them and started crying, and crying like there was no tomorrow… I couldn’t help it, I really felt like crap for ruining any chance I had with my family, including Fahad! :’(

I checked my phone and found that I had no BBMS just another DM from abdulrahman

“Noor, rdy 3alay, can I see you tomorrow?”

I ignored him, kilish mb wagta and he’s partly the main reason of this entire problem, I then tweeted “Whoever said you can ALWAYS rely on your family, 6l3 3’l6an, bad BAD day” :’)

That then even caused me to receive 2 newer DMs from abdulrahman and S3oud this time! I didn’t even want to open them and I threw my phone at the very end of the chair and kept on crying again, boys were the main problems in my life right now, last thing I need is to talk to any of them. I wanted to just hit my phone on the nearest wall!

“Noor…?”

I heard my name and turned around to find Fahad! His cheeks were red and he looked like he was either crying or fighting, I couldn’t tell… I looked up at him with my teary eyes and then down at his hand that was bleeding…

“OMG FAHAD WHAT HAPPENED?”

I quickly wiped off my tears trying to act strong and focus on Fahad right now.

“Wla shay, ksrt el glass in my room mirror.”

“ARE YOU CRAZY? LET ME LOOK AT IT.”

I quickly grabbed his hand and took of the shaal I had wrapped around me when I came to sit outside since it was a bit cold and started cleaning his hand causing my entire white shaal to turn bloody red. There were some glass pieces by his fingers so I tried taking them out but he wouldn’t let me.

“Mabeech tt3wareen Noor.”

So then I tried taking them out with the scarf therefore they wouldn’t really come into my skin and it worked, he then grabbed my hand with his other perfectly not injured hand and started playing with my fingers… :/

“Noor, ana asif about the things I said earlier in the room… I really am, ma kan 89dy I hurt you I was just mad w I don’t think you actually did anything.”

“Its fine, focus on your hand el7yn, don’t worry about me.”

“La Noor ana 3’l6t fe 7agich, sam7eeny bs its just that I judged you without even hearing your side…”

So, therefore I told him the ENTIRE story from A-Z, I know that’s a bit crazy bs I tried focusing on me more, I didn’t dare bring up anything about Juju & her lesbian gf or her ex ‘M7mad’, I don’t want to even go that way and I didn’t tell him that abdulrahman wanted to meet up with me either. 

“Mu m9adig ely ga3id asmi3a, awlan mu mtrby hal wlad w mabeech tgrbeen 9ouba, bs abeech t3rfeen eny I knew about him and Sara the very first month they dated 7ta ena he used to be a really close friend to me w 6l3 he just uses me so that he can see Sara more often IN OUR OWN HOUSE. I got into a physical fight m3ah because I had feelings for her, bs eventually I stopped getting into their business l2nha 7yat’ha after all w she told me they plan to get married one day… Bs el7yn after what he did to you, I need to teach him a lesson.”

I was so happy for some reason that he trusted me enough to tell me all of this, bs he had feelings for SARA?! Wai3 :/

“LA Fahad, promise me you won’t do anything? Brou7hm Sara and Juju NEVER want to talk to me again w they’re so pissed off, bs skr 3an elsalfa w please don’t let what happened get between you and Juju, you’re the only family she has left…”

“Ee 97, about Juju? What did you mean when you said enha tdour 3la bnat w shabab?”

“Nothing Fahad, I’m in no position af6’7 elbnt, please lats2lny.”

“Noor please tklmay, she’s like my sister w bs abee ma9la7at’ha.”

“Uhh…”

“Is she seeing someone Noor? Say the truth.”

“I can’t lie to you so yes.. Bs magdr I say who.”

“MIN IBN ELKALB!?”

“Mb ibn…”

“Shnu? Mafhmt. What are you saying?”

“I think its better if you speak to Juju, Fahad I’ve never seen someone that upset before and once you find out the entire truth FROM HER, you’ll help her fix herself bs I’m in no position to judge wallah, I’ve said too much.”

“5la9 change the subject Noor.” 

I knew that he understood exactly what I meant after he said that, he knew what his almost-sistery cousin was really like. 

“Fahad promise me you won’t mention this conversation to her? I want her to admit everything to you w mabeeha tz3l 3lay akthar.”

“I promise.”

He then pulled me in for an awkward hug which I had no idea why bs I hugged him back then he warned me 3n abdulrahman w told me that he has already cancelled Sara & Abdulrahman out of his life a long time ago and he remembered why he did after tonight and what he meant to say is that if I were to have anything to do with abdulrahman, he’ll cancel me out too… L9ara7a, Fahad was such a fair an an amazing cousin, y3ny he understands elwa7id w 7ada 6ayib (just don’t get on his bad side) and he’s so reasonable y3ny 99% of the time, the things he says are true! That was a wrap for the day…

Next day

I woke up and started packing my things, it was the final day, the day I had extremely been waiting and not waiting for. I started it off by calling 7mood, I feel like we didn’t talk for ages and he was so happy and excited that I was coming back, I really did miss him. :’)

I then replied to S3oud’s DM when he was asking what was wrong with me and I told him I’d explain everything when I was back in Kuwait, he wished me a safe flight and told me eny ‘bnawir elkuwait’.

I then had to reply to my last unread message, Abdulrahmans. I opened it to find 5 new different DMS from him, this boy doesn’t give up?

“Noor, rdyy 3alay!”

“Haa shglty 7ag tomorrow?”

“Yal 7lwa shfeech matrideen? Wallah I miss that face of yours”

“I’m so excited to see you! 7ta lw 30 minutes, they’d make my entire life.”

“I hope you know shkthr 3’alatich 3ndy, and you’re probably asleep by now, hope I pop up in your dreams O:)” :) !

This was kind of hard to do, bs I had a boyfriend and 9j ena I found him cute but I also had a cousin whom I would like to keep after loosing the 2 other closest people I had in Doha… I simply replied:

“Hey abdulrahman, I’m sorry if I’m replying late bs please do not DM me after this message because I am going to be travelling today and no we won’t meet up, I know everything you did to Fahad a year ago, allah ysam7ik 3la f3ltik hay bs what really shocked me is how you played Sara, my own cousin, so what makes me different to treat than her? You’re just a lost boy trying to have fun in life bs you’ve really messed with the wrong family, ana el7yn bsafr, it wasn’t such a good ride meeting you but I’ll still be the good one and tell you to take care of yourself.”

That felt great removing kl hal thgl 3an glby after it showed the tick ena the message has been sent and a couple minutes after that he replied a long message explaining how “I’m different than the other girls” and how “he saw a future for us” and how “it was love at first sight”, guys really could be a pain sometimes. I ignored and decided to focus on my very last hour here with my ‘family’.

As I was heading downstairs, I heard some weeps coming from a bedroom that had half its door opened. At first, I thought it was Sara or Juju but as I got closer to the door, I noticed it was more of an older woman’s voice. I pushed the door open and it was mama.

“MAMA?! Shfeech are you okay? 3sa ma shar!!!!”

“ana *sniffs* b5air.”

“Mama what’s wrong?”

“I don’t want to get you all into a depression mood but ma agdr at5yal my life without my daughter, BNTY ELWA7EEDA btrou7 w btseebny? Aaa5 ya galby!” And she broke into a river of tears; I’ve never NEVER seen her like that before… So I started crying too and we were both after a couple of minutes drowned with tears, I had never felt this kind of a heartache that hurts THIS badly before. :’(

I hugged Mama and cried on her shoulder, I then heard someone do somewhat of a cough by the door, it was Fahad.

“Adry this isn’t the time at all bs we should start heading to the airport in a couple of minutes.”

I checked the time and it was 2 pm! My flight flies at 3! We quickly rushed into the car and by we I meant, me, mama, Fahad, elsayig and 3amity Reem. I didn’t even get the chance to say bye to Sara & Juju but I sent them my goodbyes with Fahad.

We arrived to the airport and it was a bit crowded since it was a Saturday, I heard them call my flight (I had to get on the plane immediately) so I said bye to Mama who broke into tears all over again along with me crying too w 3amity Reem but I promised I’d be coming back in no time which made them both smile a bit, I love my mum but this was the right decision to make:(. Fahad then wa9alny layn da5il leaving my auntie and mama on their own w he helped me with the luggage. I had some privacy with Fahad and before I could get in 3nd the gate place, he pulled me in for a long LONG hug and told me he’d miss me so badly, awwww! I then whispered to him before releasing from the hug “You’re the closest thing I’ve ever gotten to a family and a best friend here, please don’t loose contact with me and promise you’d still like me 3la kthr ma you do now?” To be honest I was just scared Juju or Sara would turn him against me by the time period I was gone for. I then let go and walked towards the gate and Fahad became further and further as I got closer to the ticket man, he then spoke with his lips from far out “I promise, I’ll never forget you, can’t wait till the next time you come back.” He then pulled out his hands from the pockets in his thob and did somewhat of a heart towards me, awwww he looked so good in thob or actually even better when he was being cute to me.

I smiled back and got in the gate and waved a small wave at him, I’m really going to miss him x_x

I then tweeted “Kuwait, here I come <3”

I took a last look from the plane’s window as we were ready to fly up and away, a tear shed down my face and I then pulled the window’s shield thing down. :’)